Needing a place to just speak what I need to say, more than that what I feel. It is unfortunate that when I have began to have faith, I am so easily teared down. Now I was not brought up going to church consistently or taught to always pray, that was not my childhood. Although I have been through enough in my life to realize that I need to believe in something in order to be sane. I will not be a hypocrite, so I will admit I hate when some would try to pressure me into going to church or towards religion. Doing it on my own has been way more rewarding. I strive to be happy in the choices I make and choose to believe it is for a reason, but just when I think I have things figured out and that maybe just maybe things will be okay... that it does get better I have my very own family beginning me down. It is not necessary, I do not need your comments, everyone has an opinion, but that is not even the case. Saying something just to say it is, and it being rude affects me more than i want it too. The sad thing is I have learned that I should pray and ask for people that have no need in my life to be taken out.. im beggining to wonder if family members will be on the same list.